"You couldn't have helped me. It...it kept trying to self-destruct, in my head. To stop hurting. And then for a while, after you guys were all gone, I couldn't - I couldn't keep us entirely apart. It all...blended. For a while. Even though Epsilon had been removed, the memories were still there."
Nothing they could've done would've helped him. It took time to pry the two halves of his mind back apart and it was something he'd had to struggle through on his own.
"But after I pulled myself together, you wouldn't have been able to convince me to leave, not after realizing what they'd done." He gestures vaguely with a hand. "I was a little...obsessive. And you had Theta to worry about."
He doesn't blame any of the others from leaving and had been so single-minded in his quest for vengeance for...basically everybody, that he wouldn't been irritated with anyone trying too hard to rescue him or make him go.
He tilts his head.
"For whatever reason...you're here now. When this situation looks...bad. It'd be nice to actually have someone there to cover my six."
Maybe he shouldn't trust him. He'd trusted South. But here, outside their world and its various alliances, he thinks maybe he can trust him just a little.
And he wishes his old friend could say the same of him.
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"You couldn't have helped me. It...it kept trying to self-destruct, in my head. To stop hurting. And then for a while, after you guys were all gone, I couldn't - I couldn't keep us entirely apart. It all...blended. For a while. Even though Epsilon had been removed, the memories were still there."
Nothing they could've done would've helped him. It took time to pry the two halves of his mind back apart and it was something he'd had to struggle through on his own.
"But after I pulled myself together, you wouldn't have been able to convince me to leave, not after realizing what they'd done." He gestures vaguely with a hand. "I was a little...obsessive. And you had Theta to worry about."
He doesn't blame any of the others from leaving and had been so single-minded in his quest for vengeance for...basically everybody, that he wouldn't been irritated with anyone trying too hard to rescue him or make him go.
He tilts his head.
"For whatever reason...you're here now. When this situation looks...bad. It'd be nice to actually have someone there to cover my six."
Maybe he shouldn't trust him. He'd trusted South. But here, outside their world and its various alliances, he thinks maybe he can trust him just a little.
And he wishes his old friend could say the same of him.