Oh boy, this is like telling a little kid Santa as he knows him isn't real, and is really just a bearded, smelly biker named Junkchain.
"He was complicated. When it came down to it you could tell he cared about his friends, but he was cranky. But I don't think that was his fault. The Director did terrible things to him - and all of the AI fragments, you were parts of him. He split each of you off for a reason. Epsilon, for instance, was his memories, and that's why Epsilon was so hurt. Splitting them away sent the bad ones away so he didn't have to feel hurt by them anymore."
His voice goes very gentle, in a voice he learned to - but didn't remember learning to - use with Caboose.
"But some of you, like you and Delta? You were good parts that...that if he'd kept you, you would've just hurt with him and been used to hurt him. Sending you away kept you safe and made it so he didn't have to feel that part of him - feel you - being hurt."
His trust couldn't be destroyed and brutalized over and over again. The Alpha could be stronger with it gone and it could safely be nurtured by North. It wasn't a bad defense mechanism, really.
"So that meant what was left of the Alpha was someone who had to just try his best to survive while not being able to have you around. And who didn't even have the right memories for him to understand himself."
He goes on, "I think if he had been able to spend time with you, with what he didn't realize he was missing, it might have made him happier."
He doesn't really know, but Church had been all kinds of rough edges and was that shocking? If his trust and other parts had been sheared off by trauma?
And if he's wrong, is it so bad for Theta to feel like they all could've been more whole together? That he was still a part of the Alpha - the AI the fragments looked up to - that survived.
"And I think he'd be glad to find out you were still here."
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Oh boy, this is like telling a little kid Santa as he knows him isn't real, and is really just a bearded, smelly biker named Junkchain.
"He was complicated. When it came down to it you could tell he cared about his friends, but he was cranky. But I don't think that was his fault. The Director did terrible things to him - and all of the AI fragments, you were parts of him. He split each of you off for a reason. Epsilon, for instance, was his memories, and that's why Epsilon was so hurt. Splitting them away sent the bad ones away so he didn't have to feel hurt by them anymore."
His voice goes very gentle, in a voice he learned to - but didn't remember learning to - use with Caboose.
"But some of you, like you and Delta? You were good parts that...that if he'd kept you, you would've just hurt with him and been used to hurt him. Sending you away kept you safe and made it so he didn't have to feel that part of him - feel you - being hurt."
His trust couldn't be destroyed and brutalized over and over again. The Alpha could be stronger with it gone and it could safely be nurtured by North. It wasn't a bad defense mechanism, really.
"So that meant what was left of the Alpha was someone who had to just try his best to survive while not being able to have you around. And who didn't even have the right memories for him to understand himself."
He goes on, "I think if he had been able to spend time with you, with what he didn't realize he was missing, it might have made him happier."
He doesn't really know, but Church had been all kinds of rough edges and was that shocking? If his trust and other parts had been sheared off by trauma?
And if he's wrong, is it so bad for Theta to feel like they all could've been more whole together? That he was still a part of the Alpha - the AI the fragments looked up to - that survived.
"And I think he'd be glad to find out you were still here."
For now.