"If it's not--" She can't say. Catra cannot make herself say the words 'not my fault.' It sounds too impossible. She has shoved the responsibility for her issues onto others, tried to find some way of blaming her decision making on the circumstances she was in, yes, but that... that was after Adora left.

"It that's true, how come bad stuff always happens to me?" Bad things surely happen to those who do something to deserve them. Whether it's always losing to Adora or just constantly struggling with the expectations and punishments heaped onto her by Shadow Weaver, she had to have done something, right? Some past life, maybe, or some inherent flaw?